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Hahaha I forgot I had a blog

Motivated = Fulfilled

I have something in my life that is motivating me to live better and to be a better person mentally and physically. Im learning to be patient as my foot continues to heal (hopefully not incorrectly) and I can't do all of the things I'd like to as far as the physical part. More to report on that later...

I'm so happy to have my wife. My true love. My "the one". She supports any decision I make and offers the perfect amount of suggestion and encouragement as I make decisions that affect our family. 

I'm beyond happy with Maisie and the blessing she's been in my life. Also for "Leonard" our more than likely baby girl (but we dont know) that we'll meet in August.

Feeling much better than my last post 8 months ago...

Something to strive for and work towards is important to me to keep me motivated. My family (of course) is also always a source of inspiration. I'm proud that they look to me and that I am responsible for them. I'm also intimated and challenged by that. More to report on that later...

Unmotivated = Unfulfilled

Feeling so unmotivated lately. So I think, I just need to relax then I'll be rested and able to take on the day. Doesn't seem to work, the less I do, the more I lose any sense of accomplishment.
I watch a lot of TV. There was a time in my life I remember not watching any TV. What happened? There's ways something I could watch, especially with a pvr. What a waste right? I mean, I don't think it's wrong to relax and watch a couple of shows but I don't think that should be my plan for every night, all night.
It's my birthday tomorrow, no one else could know, I was born this Tuesday 28 years ago. (For all the switchfoot_luver's out there). But it's actually my birthday tomorrow. Usually I try to make resolutions at New Years and that always works out famously (sarcasm) but tomorrow seems like a good day to resolve.
It's time to step it up. I want to be content, I want to enjoy my work, I want to love Emily better, love Maisie better, do tasks as a service and not to check them off the list to get back to tv, read, exercise, be more confident, be more humble.
I think I need to find my identity in Christ, I need to let him shape me more and more to be like Him. Right now I'm wandering. Danger! I know I'm a sheep, I'm a self-aware sheep. And I still allow myself to wander like a sheep. What the heck. I'm constantly trying to do it on my own. Pride. I can't though, I'm not happy with the person I try to make myself so I need some help.
Tomorrows a good day to start. Right now? Tomorrow's good...

This is my life

I don't look forward to Monday's. I'm overweight. My foot is broken (again). There is a movie on that I have no interest in. I feel lonely sometimes. I feel tired a lot of times. I haven't seen a good movie since Dark Knight Rises. I am likely not an optimist thought is really like to be. Sunday evenings can be the best but sometimes the worst. I love vacation. I love drums. I need new music. I need to listen to music. I hear a lot of music. I'm self-centered. I'm going to bed.

Oh yeah! My blog!

Close call, almost forgot. Long day, home now with my baby beside me, watching Hells kitchen. Mhmm

Feeling like a hottyhotboy

...but only because its 26 degrees and I'm not used to it. Our if I'm not sitting with a fan blowing on me, I'm sweating. If I'm sitting still and sweating, I'm raging. Right now there's a fan on me and I'm wearing a freshly cut pair of shorts picked up today from value village...mmmm $15 for 2 new pairs of shorts. Or pants of I hadn't cut them. Also Happy Birthday Catherine Carmichael. I dreamt we were married a couple nights ago. Hopefully that's a good enough bday present. Me telling you my dreams through my blog no one reads. Don't worry I told Emily, she's not mad. I don't think. See you at your wild party tonight!

yep

each time I go to blog again, I don't know my password, and it takes as long as it would have to blog to recover my password. anyways I'm only even reminded I have this once every 2 or 3 years. so an update...

I have a wife:

a dog:

and now a baby!:

that's about it for now. a lot more is new but I'm done. i'll write again soon. right.